Blog #7: The Clover

            It is green. The purest form of the color. I guess you’d predict that of something made in nature. It doesn’t have any psychedelic, eyes blare wide, kind of colors. Just green. One that is simply made of blue and yellow. Nothing else. It is the kind of green one would make in elementary art class. Squirting a blob of blue and then a blob of yellow, and with a paint brush swirling it round and round until, there it was, a whole new color and yet utterly simple. If it’s real, then the leaves have a faded white arrow on each leaf. When the leaves are put together the white marks form different shapes, circles, diamonds. Each clover has either three, four, sometimes even five leaves, all depending on the cosmos. After every 10,000 clovers pops out of the ground, a recessive gene comes forward giving the next clover its fourth leaf. Trifolium Repens is the name. Don’t mistake it for its clover cousins.  Oxalis Deppei has a deep purple center, marsilea quadrifolia is a solid green and only grows in groups of fours, while polycarpa are a lime green and also only grows in groups of fours. The Trifolium Repens is the only true four leaf clover.

Blog #6: On Note-Passing

            Sitting two seats away from each other, my best friend Emily and I exchanged sideways glances. Her dirty blonde hair almost identical to my own was on the very top of her head in a perky messy ponytail while my own was fashioned in a messy bun. In my striped purple shirt and sparkly studded jeans she was my counterpart in her hot pink skirt and jean skort. It was the fifth grade and that Christmas we had attended a Mary-Kay party teaching us the essential techniques in order to fashion our make-up with style and grace. You could see this by our matching shimmery baby pink lip gloss and our use of clear mascara; we weren’t allowed to use black yet. Emily had just begun crushing on the boy that sat one row ahead of us and two seats to the left, Miguel. Oh, dear Miguel. He was one of the smartest in the class, in not only that he knew all the answers to our long division problems but he also was the class clown. Perching her chin in her palm she gazed at him contently and gaze a dramatic sigh. Then jumping as if startled, she started feverishly writing on a piece of lined paper as our teacher, with her back facing the class, wrote instructions of our next task on the blackboard. Giraffe-like, I stretched up and over trying to make out what the heck she was doing. Folding it with perfection we both became lost in her origami creation of the perfect note for passing. She slid it to the person next to her and before another blink had settled our teacher made both of us jump this time as she snatched the note right from the desk and walked back to the front of the class. My jaw dropped contrasting with the jolt of both my eyebrows to the crown of my forehead. Another sideways glance at Emily told me that she was as red as the lipstick Jordy Rhorman had worn to school without her mother’s permission. She slowly slid deep into her seat and all I could think about was what could possibly be in that note. Being the best friend that I am, I exclaimed loudly and dramatically, ”Please don’t read it! We’ll do anything!”

Blog #5: Oh Stretch Marks

            My sister pulls her shirt up to underneath her breasts so that we can see her watermelon tummy. It is so large that I can’t help but think that something other than a baby must be hiding in there. Red, as bright as fire, squiggly lines run up and down her stomach, just like how green ones run up watermelons. Treena, my sister, has me put my hand on her stomach, feeling for a little kick. The little red worms were like outlines of where to place my hand. Deeply embedded and run tight. Tiger Stripes. After nine months of carrying a baby and four hours of hard labor, she earned every one of those tiger stripes. Her bravery and strength defined in every one.

When, you think of scars, you think of someone’s uniqueness. You think of how that separates them from any other person. A scar shows something painful you went through, and survived in the end. If you Google stretch marks, the first thing to find is how to remove them. Stretch marks are also scars, but why are these scars ones that no one feels pride for?  When someone receives these marks it is merely a representation of rapid growth or weight change.

If I take off my shirt, I also see those same squiggly lines run up my love handles and run from my armpits to the outside of my breasts. I used to think that these stripes aren’t something that I earned. They are things that I actually worked hard not to receive. Scars are supposed to show that you’ve gone through something painful and gotten through it. If I think about it, my tiger stripes were given to me when I went back to school and no longer had a B cup but went to a full flown DD. Those tiger stripes were given to me for holding my head high as I went from a lanky adolescent to an hourglassed woman. These battle scars are proof that I lived through those stares, through the not being able to wear the same size of jeans, through the being sized in the middle of Victoria’s Secret. Head held high, chin pointing towards the sky, representing my stripes with pride.